I think I was nuts earlier. I’m SO not confident! I am SO not relaxed! What made me think I could do this job? I have a Monday morning class of only first-year students and I only just realized that I could be the very first college instructor that these students ever have. Ever. Suddenly, I don’t care that I have an 11 page syllabus and a plagiarism contract and a detailed schedule for the first three weeks of the class – I am clearly not prepared to get up in front of a room full of 28 first-year students and become this thing… this horrible, terrible wielder of all academic power … this, this… Professor.