Thanks to all of you out there in the blogosphere who have very kindly inquired if I had kicked the bucket, or what. It is always nice to know that one is missed! In the words of the immortal Monty Python de-limbed knight… “I’m not dead yet. I’ll bite your ankles…” (or something along those lines. I always close my eyes for that part because the spurting faux blood is icky and gives me the willies and lord knows you can’t hear properly when your eyes are closed.)
I’ve been away from the blog mainly because I have been overwhelmed and exhausted, but also because I didn’t want it to devolve into a forum for unabashed griping on my part. The past few entries had really taken on a “wah, poor me” tone. And, while the suggestions and support have been amazing — when I emerged from the madness, I started to feel really awful bitching and moaning about how tired I was having to do this thing that I love at an amazing institution that I love for students I love while getting paid more money than I ever have before. Something there seemed disingenuous and just plain wrong, no matter how tired I was or how much work I had to do.
And actually, I think I’m getting a hang of this 3-course thing. Or maybe it is that I’ve been on Spring Break this week and have blissfully set aside any thought whatsoever of my classes as I watch Veronica Mars on DVD (which by the way is the best show since my beloved Buffy left the air) and try to write a conference paper that is now 2 weeks late. (sigh.) Although here in Zone 5, “Spring” is a bit of a misnomer. I’m definitely getting tired of winter and getting that antsy when-will-it-ever-end-for-God’s-sake feeling. March always sucks because you think it is spring, it SHOULD be spring, but it just never is.
Oops — there I go, bitching again. Crap. Maybe it is the anonymity of the blog that makes it so easy to gripe — or maybe it is the strange public/private-ness of it. It FEELS like I’m in private, here alone with the computer, so I can say those nasty things that I think to myself in my head but wouldn’t usually say out loud. (well, mostly usually.)
ANYWAY — I think for the next 6-7 weeks, I’m going to put the blog on official hiatus. (Not that it hasn’t really been that way unofficially). Until the semester is out, I’m going to be scarce around these here parts. I’ll be back with a vengeance (and a dissertation) this summer as I really, really have to finish the PhDammit and will need the structure that daily entries provide.
Meanwhile, so long for a bit, and thanks for all the fish.
(is this my day for geeky ’70s Brit culture references, or what? If only I had ever watched Dr. Who and could work a reference in there somewhere, the blog entry would be complete.)